This is pretty much nothing but a rant, and mostly lacking in any sort of political correctness.
All day I was living happily in the afterglow of a wonderfully relaxing weekend with my hubby. Really - it was fantastic and while it was a bit difficult getting into work mode, I felt rested and ready to take on the week. Then it happened... I was... well, read on if you want. But again, you've been warned.
This is one of those days where I wish weight loss was less... obvious.
Where, if I could just quietly do my thing so no one would notice, and my physical appearence stayed the same, I'd happy. Don't get me wrong. I'm LOVING the changes that I've made in my life - I feel GOOD (OWW! dun na duh na dun....) and I feel strong!
And honestly, I don't mind the compliments - I'm getting more used to just saying "thank you"... And if folks ask questions on how to truly get their health in order- you all know I welcome it!
But seriously, if I'm doing things in a healthy, non-extreme way, what business is it of other people what I eat/don't eat?!
And seriously, if you're going comment about what YOU think I do/don't eat, then you won't mind when I stop by your desk and make snide remarks about YOUR eating habits.
I feel like posting a sign on my desk that says:
1) YES. I have lost weight. I've also gained so much more insight into my life.
It's called self development and radical self acceptance... you should try it.
2) YES. I do know how much I've lost. NO! I'm not going to tell you. It's happened over the past 4 years. But you really only started noticing in the last 12 months. The bigger question is: Why does it matter to YOU what the numbers are on MY scale?
I've gained a healthier lifeSTYLE that I LOVE. How about you?
3) YES! I AM eating a cookie/piece of cake/bagel/REAL sugar/REAL bread/ice cream/fries/soda/insert random, supposedly "forbidden" food.
It's called living in the real world and practicing moderation in all things... including moderation. Again, you should try it.
4) YES! I AM eating again... and will be in a few more hours. Deal. Contrary to popular opinion, you actually have to EAT to reach a HEALTHY weight.
5) NO! I really, really, really don't want to hear about your friend's 2nd cousin 5 times removed that lost a TON of weight eating a carrot every other day. I actually respect my body... and my life... and my health.
I got yet ANOTHER remark about what I supposedly do or don't eat.
A co-worker has yummy peanuts in the shell, and the shell is coated in some sort of spicy seasoning. NUM-O.
I was snacky, and grabbed some... seriously, I had 3. Then another co-worker STARES at me.
Me - Ummm... what?
Her - YOU don't eat things like THAT!
Me - I don't? Since when?
Her - Well, I haven't SEEN you eat anything like that in FOREVER!
Me - Really? Guess you haven't been paying that much attention.
Her - But you eat so HEALTHY!
Me *munching happily* - yep... you're right!
No, this event it's not a huge thing in and of itself, but it brings to mind one simple question: Does it ever stop?!
Does the projection of other people's food/body issues ever truly stop?
If I'm 50 pounds heavier, you think I shouldn't have the cake, but then guilt me into having some so YOU don't offended.
If I'm 50 pounds lighter you think I need _2_ pieces because I'm getting /too/ thin, but then ridicule me if I actually eat it, because it's not 'healthy'.
You're right... it's cake. Sorta like bacon: it's the antithesis of healthy. It's also nummy.
I've made my peace with it. Have you?
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
The one where I pitch a small fit