|So as I was getting ready this morning and being mad at my body for not wanting to work properly, I discovered the source of my pain... there was the gentle tapping of rain on the skylight. We weren't supposed to have rain till tomorrow, but guess the weather gods decided otherwise.|
I hate being so sensitive to weather changes like this... my honey & I both have the problem of knowing if there's inclimate weather before looking outside. If there's a high pressure system hitting us, I get all achey, tired, headachy, and generally cranky. So yeah... this explains a lot for this morning.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Was one of *those* mornings, after one of *those* nights. Went to bed early because I was seriously cranky after dealing with my car tire that didn't want to come off, then had a headache. So this morning, got up to keep my appt w/Denise (sooo dang perky that one) and managed to muddle through the aerobics, but my body was in slight FM mode - felt like my arms & legs were filled with sand and was soooo uncoordinated. So I did a lot of walking in place, but at least I did it. Will try it again tonight to see if it goes better.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
OMG didn't want to get up this morning! Was sooo hard to get to sleep - that first night when my honey is gone is difficult to get comfy, and try not to listen to every little noise. Not to mention the kitties getting extra snuggly now that it's gotten a bit colder out.
But I dragged my butt out of bed and got the first bit of cardio in for the day. Will do more when I get home, cuz not only do I need to kick it in gear in general, the Pink team is soooo gonna rule! :)
One cool thing I noticed this morning - I caught a glimpse of myself in the door of the entertainment center and went "wow. I have a waist! And its fairly defined!" yay!
Monday, November 26, 2007
Yay! I survived the turkey day trap and managed to maintain my weight... and even dropped a 1/2#.
The holiday was great and the weekend was very nice - got to spend a lot of time with my honey which was wonderful. Even helped him out at his presentations on Friday, making some money in the process. :) The cold front finally moved in and we had to turn the heat on by Saturday... Yeah, I'm a wimp with the cold, but oh well.
So in an update letter from my Firecracker group, one of our fearless leaders mentioned that if we shed 2# of body clutter a week, by 7/4/08 we'd be down 64#... now I don't need to lose that much, but wow! I could so stand to drop 2# a week.
So I decided that I'm done. Yes it's been nice to see small drops here and there. But I'm done with bein satisfied with whatever happens, and start making it happen.
Practice Persistence Patience - Success is sure to come
So my goal for the next 4 weeks is:
1) get a minimum of 30 min of exercise a day (one day off for rest),
2) use my plan to get walking...
3) bring my shoes & change of clothes to work so I can walk the track 1-2 times a week
4) Strength training 3x a week to get my arms in shape for rapier and the wedding
5) watch my sodium intake to keep the bloating down.
6) only 1-2 alcoholic beverages a week max. (after one beer I instantly felt bloated)
I think that works for now. :)
Sunday, November 18, 2007
::giggle:: on the heels of my praise of the carb-y goodness, I need to put my goals in to writing, lest I forget about them.
I tried on my wedding dress today, which is no small feat when one has the 'assistance' of an energetic kitten. Veruca & I weren't happy. The dress is a size 16, and in the world of bridal dresses, that's a real world size of at *most* a size 14. I'm currently at about a size 16-18, depending on the clothes.
In order to zip said dress, I need to lose at least 6-7 inches around my waist in the next 6 months.
I've got a lot of work ahead of me, but I know I can do it! It's really easy to fall into the *It's too much to do in a short amount of time, I can't do it why bother?' way of thinking. And it's also really easy to think of ways of cheating, like if I get a corset it'll take about 2" off so I only need to lose 4-5"... yeah, the corset is a given because it just looks better, but I am looking at it from a bigger picture - I need to do it for me, to be healthy... *and* to look slammin' on the big day. And I need to do it for my honey, so that he can have a sax-ahy, energetic partner who isn't all 'nooo, lets sit on the couch & snuggle instead of going out and doing stuff'.
My biggest concern is keeping my hypothyroidism at bay, and not triggering the fibro-like symptoms in the process. Part of that is going to be being sure I take my vitamins & supplements on a regular basis, along with eating right, another part of that is to exercise to tolerance, not fatigue, but learning how I can push myself within that tolerance range.
I'm keeping in mind, too, that I can only control my actions, not the results. So I need to do a lot of action. Be Persistent, Be Consistent.
It's gonna be tough, but the pay offs will be great!
Just my little giggle for today...
But yay it's Friday. Why is it that short weeks seem like the longest weeks e-v-a-r? eesh. Sinuses are finally starting to ease up and not hate me *quite* so much...I may do something wacky tomorrow like get up and go for a walk. *gasp* I got a spiffy new pedometer that will help with my 'plan' - it has a timer on it so I don't have to take a timer *and* my pedometer on a walk... yay. So can't wait to use it.
Went and got a hair cut last night and not sure if it's good or bad no one has commented on it - I got about 2" cut, but considering it was past my shoulder blades before, guess it's not *too* drastic... gonna color it this weekend too since it *really* needs it.
I have an appointment at Simply Dinners tomorrow - should be interesting. It's one of those go in and assemble the food to cook later kind of places. I've done similar stuff at home w/the menu mailers & freezer cooking, but I'm liking the idea of someone else doing all the pre-work for me and me just putting it together. And looking at the nutritional info, it doesn't look too bad health wise.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Anywho, I am tired of being ambiguous about the 'I'm going to do more walking'. I was reading Family Circle at lunch & there it was...a plan. (I know, there's lots of them, but this is the one I saw & liked.)
So I shall be doing my 3-2-1 plan
3 - days a week, do 30-60 min of purposeful walking
2 - days a week do 25-45 min of high intenstity walking
1 - day a week do at least a 90-minute walk (focus on time not speed)
Here's my schedule:
Monday: purposeful walking
Tues: high intensity
Wed: purposeful walking
Thurs: high intensity
Fri: purposeful walking
Sat/Sun: Long walk
So there... I like having a schedule s it can be more like "it's tuesday so I"m doing X."
Gotta love the sleep...helps with restoring and getting one back to feeling semi-human again. Still need one more good night's sleep, and since the Honey is back to his travels, I can actually get to bed at a decent hour tonight (she says hopefully). And the darn kittens sleepin' me this morning, I missed my appt with that perky Denise... Sadly, I really *did* miss it... was looking forward to the hopping around clumsily, and 'burnin' that butter' LOL!
Monday, November 12, 2007
I survived the weekend... and had a pretty good time in the process. But OMG the heard of Drama Llama's that were unleashed at war in Feb. are still running rampant... the running joke in camp was 'hmm... wonder if those are good eatin's?' Despite it all, fun was had, but I think I've had enough hot dogs to last me a loooong while, not to mention having really sore legs from all the walking.
Got home last night, bestowed pettin's on the kittens, headed to the shower and then to bed... Feeling a little more human today, and was wonderful to sleep in a nice warm bed, but think I still need another shower. LOL!
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
again with the PTB flicks to the head... from yesterday's Healthy Reflection:
"If you spend too much time working on your weaknesses, all you end up with is a lot of strong weaknesses. - Dan Sullivan, business coach
Playing to your strengths
It's tempting isn't it? It's so much easier to see what's wrong with yourself and your life than to take advantage of what's right. The problem is, too much focus on the negative can affect your attitude and opinion of yourself. It's a quick road to burnout. While it's important to pay attention to things you can improve, your best bet for a breakthrough lies in maximizing what you're already good at. The secret is to use those strengths to help boost yourself up where you need the help. What are your major talents? What do you have a special knack for? Set specific goals to improve those talents and don't fret as much about your weak spots. They'll get the extra help they need as you climb higher. "
Totally hits home... Was just thinking about those times when I feel like a total fake - someone complements me or gives me credit and I think "boy, got you fooled"... or I had my cousin once comment to me that "I like your life... I wanna have that when I grow up." I felt like she couldn't possibly want that because omg if she knew the *real* me, she would probably hate me.
But then again, that's the life we live in our own heads, and it's real to us, but that's not how others see us... how nice would it be to think of *ourselves* the way other people see us?! (all the good stuff, of course!) Why is it so hard to transition from beating ourselves up, to _building_ ourselves up? Part of FLYing is learning to love yourself the way you *are*, and appreciating and recognizing the good that you are and do. Time for me, at least, to start looking at that more often.
In other news I figured out (I think) the reason for my hands going nuts and breaking out/drying out like they have been... I've been focusing on keeping my water intake high and sodium level low... well, elecrolites and what not are getting out of wack. Duh. So gonna make myself the DIY sport drink - take a spoonful of drink mix, add a bit of salt, mix with water. *poof* instant sports drink.
Monday, November 5, 2007
OMG my sinuses hurt...
Was a fun weekend - long and tiring, but a good time was had by all... was soooo glad my honey made it back in time for the Laureling and is great to have him home, even if it's for a short-ish time.
Managed to get my butt out of bed and do some exercise, then have piles-o-stuff to do today & tomorrow as I'm off the rest of the week. Blah!
ok, guess I gets to it then.
Friday, November 2, 2007
And the garb is about 80% done... that last 20% isn't a lot, but it's more time consuming... I was at my friends till about 12:30 and got home around 1-ish... OMG tired, and the day's not over yet. Problem is my body's going "either sleep or give us fuel" and my co-worker came around with a menu to order something in... I'm channeling my inner Hobbit and having 2nd breakfast.
My plan for tonight is 1) possibly leave work early (around 3) to get a nap in, 2) straighten the house a bit for when my honey gets home tomorrow 3) go for a walk down the block again... need to get my legs used to walking on uneven terrain for next week *and* work off 2nd breakfast, 4) finish off the honey's pants so he can wear them Sunday 5) go to the vigil 6) meet my friend for a drinky poo 7) go home and crash so I can start it over again.
Thursday, November 1, 2007
Stoopid PTB, and their incessant flicking in my head. Read the "going through the emotions" article in the wellness section and got flicked. This part really stood out:
"You can be the hammer, making things happen, or you can be the nail that sits there and gets pummeled over and over. "
Then the community highlight email with this:
"It's been 4 months now... and I've lost just over 40lbs. Still a long way to go, but for the first time I feel calm and in control of my dieting strategy. I wake up every morning and plan my meals. Yes it means I have to wake up earlier than before, but when I weigh the 2 options against themselves it goes something like this...
Option 1: Miss out on 30 minutes of sleep
Option 2: Get heckled in the street by strangers
Option 1 always wins. Always. "
I (and other people) always make things filled with shades of grey, but really, there's just black and white: Do it or don't. Anything in between is the grey area of excuses.
It's all a matter of stopping the squirlly behavior, stopping the indecision, and making up my mind to do it or don't.
Scary thing is this applies to a few things in my life right now...
Heh... It's Hammer Time! :)