Yep...

The man who wants to lead the orchestra must turn his back on the crowd.

- James Crook

Isn't that the truth?!?! I feel like I've done this of late - turned my back on the crowd and am doing what makes *me* happy. Now I just need to figure out what that is... and I figured out the 'blue' feeling - While I'm not sad that I've chosen the path I am on, I am mourning the loss of that part of my life - for good or bad, true or illusion, it was a part of my life that is now gone and that is a loss. I know it will get better, but it's just uncomfortable for the moment.